DARK

Have you ever felt that your world is spiraling down around you to bottomless darkness but...... still you have to force yourself up every morning with blurring mind of sleepless night because no matter what had happened, you still have your life to live, obligation in this life to fulfill.

You feel like a ghost, so dead inside you, it's aching..... it's bleeding.... still you have to keep your performance, forcing false smile and laugh and look strong to face the world and move forward.

You are not a child anymore, but you're not wiser then a child. You work but you can't concentrate, you look edgy and tired.

You felt confidence and comfortable of yourself before, until one wrong calculation, one wrong decision that stirred your life out of it course.

The impact's great, involving your surrounding.....

You still feeling grateful though, to have your own parent and family as your barrier, as your foundation but sometimes even their understanding and unspoken pitiness from their eyes pricked your already bleeding heart.

Feeling quilt for all the foolishness and stubbornness , feeling quilt not able to give your parents a peace of minds, feeling quilt still so depend on them.

Still.......you have to move on....

Do You?

Did you feeling same with me, when you just have a fight with you DH, you would thought that I should never married to this man he has changed, but then, when you set your eyes on your kid, your heart will melt and thought instead that if you didn't married to him, you would not have them.........