Stone Massage

Ahhhhh.... I escape to a spa this Monday, the Spa got nice ethnic style for the interior a mix of Kampung and Balinese style.
Luckily, I found out I can get 30% disc and decided to try the stone massage instead of cheaper relaxing massage. The procedure take 2 hour!
I have heard and read many benefit of hot stones massage but never have time to tried them before.
Well, to cut the story short, my masseur was very good, gave pressure massage on the certain points of my body and use hot stone to massage from back to toe. She said my body was tense all over and "masuk angin", so it become red where ever she massage. Advised me to take bath after 2 hours and not drinking any cold water to avoid masuk angin again. She did gave me a nice cup of hot bandrex though to help me ease out the wind.

I felt sooooo sleepyyyyy and relax afterward and farting a lot on my way driving home.

BakSos By Dr's Koffie Foundation with Navy at Kampung Nelayan

We arrived at Kampung Nelayan around 9.00 am by boat sponsored by navy.
The village is small and remote. The sanitation and facilities are bad. Minimal fresh and clean water supply.
The filthy water as shown on the pictures below are the children's 'Swimming Pool' that's the main reason many of them got major skin problems and diarrhea even just a few months old babies.
I volunteer at pharmacy and as seen on the picture below, all are busy (I take a break to snap some pics hehehe)
The plastic bags below are prescription medicines ready to give out to each patients depend on their disease.

Second Chance

I never believe in writing therapy before until I decided to write down about my dark and empty feeling. Although the post may sound pathetic but somehow, afterward, that night, I slept better and able to see things in a newer perspective and a bit different angles.

The next day, the more I read my own post, the more I realize how it’ll eat me slowly. I still want to claim my own life and do the best of it. I believe my rule in this life still not over yet. I believe in Karma though when bad times come, you’ll tend to usher all the thought about your believe to the small corner of your brain and choose to pity yourself instead. It’s easier that way….

Yesterday, instead of kept blaming myself, I make a decision to volunteer at Dr’s Koffie Foundation. It’s a non profit foundation based at Dr’s koffie café which all of its profit will be 100% donated to Dr’s Koffie Foundation.
Dr’s Koffie café was established by dr. IP and Mrs. AW. Both are very special people with good spirit and their mission is to provide health care for all poor and remote ones.

We went to a little kampong nelayan by boat sponsored by navy and gave free medical care. The villager are so poor that they don’t have money to seek doctors and get any proper medical care.
I was asked to help the pharmacy section which my job was ticketing (writing down doctor prescription for each patient’s medicines)
We’re so busy that we didn’t have time to drink or pee. In just a few hours (4-5 hours) we gave out around -/+ 400 recipes.

Truly…I enjoyed it, able to channeling out some of all my dark thought for something good indeed.

We all went back to Dr’s koffie café later. At the time, all my dark mood start to sneak in my ungrateful brain again but then, dr. I and Mrs. A asked me to joined them on their table which was full with doctors (maybe my face shown out my bitterness somehow?)
Well, then, I ‘m grateful to have chance to sharing with dr. Maria, spkk. She’s very wise lady with broad perspectives about life and how to live and be alive and her willingness to share out her own life experiences was really a mind opener.

Actually, we all know about it theoretically, but, it’s different with someone told you directly. The ways the tricky mind works and digest the information gave you different understanding about how to live and how to be alive.
Happiness is not something we can seek or chase. Either do fulfillment. It’s how we do for the others how we concur ourselves, our egos.
She’s able to make me realize we just a tiny dust in this universe. What we can do for the others is more meaningful. How we create a history of our life of our deed. Held no grudge and always be positive in mind and to the others then the live will glides smoothly for us.

Well, it’s hard because we all have needs, wants and egos. We want success and achievements. We want social status and respects. Can we put them all aside to reach the true happiness and peace of mind?
Can I? Can you?...........................................

DARK

Have you ever felt that your world is spiraling down around you to bottomless darkness but...... still you have to force yourself up every morning with blurring mind of sleepless night because no matter what had happened, you still have your life to live, obligation in this life to fulfill.

You feel like a ghost, so dead inside you, it's aching..... it's bleeding.... still you have to keep your performance, forcing false smile and laugh and look strong to face the world and move forward.

You are not a child anymore, but you're not wiser then a child. You work but you can't concentrate, you look edgy and tired.

You felt confidence and comfortable of yourself before, until one wrong calculation, one wrong decision that stirred your life out of it course.

The impact's great, involving your surrounding.....

You still feeling grateful though, to have your own parent and family as your barrier, as your foundation but sometimes even their understanding and unspoken pitiness from their eyes pricked your already bleeding heart.

Feeling quilt for all the foolishness and stubbornness , feeling quilt not able to give your parents a peace of minds, feeling quilt still so depend on them.

Still.......you have to move on....

I'm so Soi ( bad luck )

Have you ever felt like you're in the bottom of a pit?
I'm...After all the internal problems and troubles and still I must face more steep and tricky road ahead.
Maybe, as a person, I'm too naive (inherited), I always think that if you didn't mean bad, it'll be ok.

But it didn't work that way, specially if you're dealing with rich and famous ones.
Examples: There's a mummy who I adored much, very smooth and silky complexion (she is older then me) and WOW body.
One day, when we're in the gym, weight lifting, I asked her how to get such hmmmm skin and without hesitated, she told me.
Then when my other friends who happen to admire her skin talking about her, I just told them the truth. But it turned out I was doing something wrong. I should have kept my big mouth shut because she's angry with me because I've told the others about her skin care products and her undergo treatment.
I'm shocked, I mean, If she wanted it to be a secret,why she told me in the first place? She even gave me the detail of all. If she want me to kept it secret, why not asked me to? why she got angry when found out others already knew and many follow her foot steps? It's not shameful, she just went under some fraxel laser to rejuvenate her skin, not face lift or something...I will also fraxeling my face if i have budget. But there....she just mad at me and refused to talked to me, even avoiding me....
Until now... after nights of lost sleep...I still can't figured out why..

Then I just informed by my cousin to delete one of my post because it has made someone very important felt uncomfortable, I was shocked, I meant no harm, I just very admired their successful and adored them. He told me the important one was offended and accused me to have no right to post it.

Yes, I didn't asked their permission but I didn't specify anything either. It can be anything, anyone, anywhere and also I wrote it : AS RUMOR(...).

If you take a pic of nice dinner you're having in restaurant, and post them in your blog, do you asking any permission?

Or there's a very fancy car past by and you snap the pic and post it, but you dabbed out the license number but you also noted down such as that the car maybe cost a few M rupiah, did you did anything wrong?

Also maybe you saw a very very WOW and beautiful house, you snapped the pic and post in your blog and also wrote down some opinion such as this beautiful house maybe cost some M but you dabbed out the house number and you didn't gave any specific information, did the owner of the house have the right to be so MAD at you and accused you spreading false info about their houses price?

From my point of view, it's just a mare opinion or gossips or rumors, harmless....

But,what happened is otherwise, because some of their friends have somewhat stumbled to my blog and told them about it. And they're angry about it.

I can't stop thinking....I never knew there are Indonesian reading my blog because from my visitor chat, all foreigner.

Maybe my Visitor chat/log is miss function?

I dunno, but I surely will apologized to all that felt uncomfortable because of me because I don't need more troubles in my life.

AS REMINDER, once again, this is online era, everything is so expose and open, anyone can post about anything. If you want something to be a secrecy, just keep it secret, don't exposed it, don't show off, if needed, maybe temporary confiscated all your visitors / guests cellphone just in case they snapped some pics because now, even a cheap one have camera built in it.

This blog is only a media for me to share my experiences, feelings, news, even gossips and rumors. If some of my post are offended someone, please contact me directly, so I can delete them, no need to pull any channels because basically I'm really a very understanding and negotiable person.

Megan and her best friend

Is so inseparable... always together, when sleeping or playing or even when pooing. It seem her best pal gave her strength to push out nasty big poo. She even want to bring him to her kiddie but not allowed, of cause, other wise maybe will fall down to the ground and get dirty.

Model in The Making???

Megan learn to write

Not really writing hehehe but just scribble or sketch here and there when ever she get hold on pencil or ballpoint. Her favorite is scribble either on a piece of paper or her own palm ...

Bit of my dissapointment

I'm at my facial clinic to have a routine monthly facial which currently have moved to new hip building recently.
Well, inside it, the interior actually look more like cafe then facial clinic, but no WIFI!!!!
Building as chick as this, with all modern interior and exterior but no WIFI!
And I have to wait for 1.5 hours for my turn.
sigh..............what a time wasting....

Water broke on full term still lost the baby

Another sad things had happened. My distance cousin has lost his baby girl. So unexpected and shocked to all of us. I met the couple on chinese new year, the mummy's happily and glowing pregnant.
This time is nearly her due time when all sad things happened.
On 2 march, she felt uncomfortable, feeling a bit shiver and dizzy. So she called her doctor/gynecologic and he put her on V said she got some infection and assured her everything is ok.
On 3 march, around 9.00 am, her water broke. Her husband rushed her to hospital right away. The nurse examined her and found that she just 1cm open.
The doctor/gynea arrived at hospital on 13.00, examined her and said everything is OK, she just need to wait till her door open fully.
On 17.00, ordered from doctor by phone, she was induced by nurse and then started to have her painfully contraction.
My aunt visited her on 20.00 , she's all in pain and have regular contraction. My aunt for the doctor, the nurses assured my aunt that the doctor will arrived shortly.
But he didn't, untill the next morning, on 4 march, 7.00 the doctor arrived and after a quick examination, ordered to gave her cesarean right away.
But.....the baby was born already blue and gray, her heart is still beating though, but not able to cry and breath on her own.
Maybe because of infection, maybe because of oxygen depletion, we don't know, the doctor won't tell. But we're sad of losing a beautiful baby girl.

Killer maid updated

Sri was arrested anew days ago at her hometown , jawa. As predictedm she pledge insanity and irresponsible of all her deed.
She even claimed that she heard screamed and cried for help that dawn but she hate them specially her working partner, hartini, she choosed to ignored them and run away.
She said it was not her intention to killed the children, only hartini, but why she locked the children bedroom from the outside? why she even out the fire under the X-Trail car that caused explosion?
Hah....Cruel...I really dunno what to write.